Over 2 and a half years ago our oldest son started BJJ. For several months I’d sit in the waiting room and watch his class or wait for his class. And during that time, I saw a women’s fitness class that took place… either during or before or after… at any rate, I’d get glimpses of the women working out in there. And when I first saw them I thought, “Oh my goodness… those ladies are insane. I could never do that!” And then sometimes this thought would creep in, “Man, I WISH I could do what they do.” But seriously, never. I am the girl who quit softball at 8 b/c I didn’t like getting sweaty. I’m the girl who “played” lacrosse in high school, but would sit out on push ups when the coach wasn’t looking… I was in it to have fun with my friends. Competitive I was not. I ran for awhile. I even did a few half marathons and the Annapolis 10 miler. I was proud of myself for finishing, because it was literally the hardest I had ever worked for something. But, a few years went by and those running shoes gathered dust. I tried a few DVD’s…Jillian Michael’s…some 10 minute work out… but they were always something that WHEN I did I did b/c I felt I should, but not ever b/c I wanted to or enjoyed it. Working out was always that thing I knew I should do and rarely, ever enjoyed.
And then, the gym advertised a promotional rate to try out their Fight Fit class. And I thought, “Man I’d like to try that.” I vividly remember bringing it up casually to Scott…. so they have this promotion going on right now, and you can try fight fit for a few months at this special rate… and I was thinking, what do you think? Do you think I could do that…. (let me tell you that Scott sometimes motivates me with reverse psychology… and it totally works…sometimes he’ll tell me he thinks I can’t do something and I will go all out to prove him wrong….) I am so glad this time he didn’t go the reverse psychology route. Because I was so insecure and if he said, “I’m not sure, that sounds pretty rough.” I would have said, “You’re right,” and I would have stayed in that waiting room. I don’t know how he knew, but instead he said, “Yea… you should totally do that! Go for it.” And I thought about it a little longer and one evening while our son was at practice, I signed up.
I remember my first Fight Fit class. It was 2 years ago this weekend. I was so, so nervous. I was sick to my stomach. I remember I was grouchy and short leashed with everyone in my family. I remember driving to the gym feeling like I would surely throw up. And then I walked into the room, with all these ladies who I didn’t know and so many of which were so much stronger and better shaped than me, and I thought, “What am I doing here?” Then the instructor told us the warm up and I thought, “YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! That is the WARM UP! That is more of a work out than I have ever done in my life!” And I thought for sure I would die.
But, I didn’t die. I sweat more than I have ever sweat in my life, but I didn’t die. The next day I was more sore than I have ever been in my life too. But, I came back.
And I loved it. LOVED it! For the first time in my life, I found myself enjoying working out. And at the end of the promotion, I was hooked. I remember they offered a discount if you signed up for a year and Scott and I were working the budget and we wondered, “Ok, so will I really stick with this for a whole year?” 2 years later and I am still there because I love it. I love pushing my body past what I think it can do. I love the feeling of complete pain and exhaustion after a work out. I love waking up the next day with EVERY single muscle in my body crying out. I love that for the first time in my life, I have actual muscles in my arm. Real muscles! Who knew? I love that when I started two years ago, I could barely do a chest press with a 25lb bar and now I can use a 45lb bar. I love that when I first started, I used a 15lb slam ball and now I grab the 30lb and a few times I’ve even tried the 40lb one. I love that I am stronger now, at 36/almost 37 than I have ever been in my life. I love that for the first time in my life, I LOVE working out. I miss it when I can’t make it to the gym. And I love that I found a group of friends there who encourage and push me. They are there to push me to run faster or add more weight. They are there on the days when I’m the last one finishing and can barely lift that bar another time, to say, “Don’t stop, you got this!” And without them there, I know I wouldn’t be able to do it. (Thanks ladies!) There is no way I could do this on my own at home in the basement. I need their accountability and motivation, their push and encouragement. I am not yet where I want to be. I have new goals I want to reach, but I am so thankful that I am no longer where I once was. I am so glad that I went ahead and gave it a try. Even though I knew it was out of my comfort zone. Even though I knew it was harder than anything I had attempted. I am glad I went ahead and tried. Because if I hadn’t, I am sure I would have regretted it as I sat watching in the waiting room.